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Feel welcomed.

Just finishing watching Torchwood. I don't want it to end so badly, I started typing this pointless journal, full of blabbers in the middle of watching the very last episode of Children of Earth.

Warning: This will contain spoilers. Obviously.


( Torchwood rant. Go, just run away. )

( You don't have to read this, Let yourself be spared. )

Now back to the fucking ellipse D<

You don't need to read this. I guarantee you that.
I felt like ranting about the stupidest thing ever and what is a better place for that than lj?

( the tv-shizz. )

Hello there, everyone, who actually reads these blabberings of mine here on LJ. C:
Lot of shit changed/happened during last couple of weeks, so I just thought I'd sum it all up in a short entry.

( This cut is a truth. Well, sort of.....or not? )

EDIT (09 AUG 09) : The last chance for this LJ-fuck-thing to suck my junk-journal in. I assumed I should give it one more chance, since it was able to suck in my icon last night (ain't it cute? C: okay don't answer, duh.)
original journal written on 7th of August.


Neglected

Really.
I seem to be unable to keep up with this side. For me, LJ is only about Asu's journals and the slashpark community, mostly. And I always promise myself I'll keep it alive, that I'll post here some semi-emo/semi-happy stuff every now and then. And for keeping a funny journal I'm too uncreative and boring. But I'm really not good in putting thoughts into words.

( Anyways wanted to give it a try )

First of all, yes I updated. (OMG!no!, eda never updates her LJ, whut happened?) Nothing much, really.

( DSKTP SCRNSHT MM )

Okay that's about the tag.

Now the actual rant, shall we? C:

( RANTZ )

I guess that's all...
okay, this is really, really weird, I feel like saying a goodbye or something, becuz I feel it WILL BE for longer than any of you thinks, but on the other hand I made that promise

( and at the very end have some CP crap pic I drew )

hey there PPLZ!
I haven't written a journal for..... ages (23 weeks exactly xD)

I just stopped by to tell ya few things.
Me and Shel are high on South Park lately and all kinds of pairings from there, too XD and we both write a fanfic to it. it's not gonna be a collab, both have their own work ^^ and that's pretty much all I do. Watch south park when we're at ours, draw south park when Shel leaves, write South Park at school. 8D We're pretty much into roleplaying Style (StanxKyle), too :D hahaha, silly fangirls you say? Yeah, most proly xD
If you love south park, too, feel free to tell me if you see the yaoi there. if so, which pairings do you love most?
my faves: Style, Creek, Clyken, K^2 (KennyKyle), and I dont even know.. xD but STYLE is absolutely canon C: i hope you agree, my fellas ^^

School. Hmm. I dunno.. I dont really mind it last weeks xDD This is my last school year on highschool. I'm pretty much slacking it off considering how much I should study.  I hope I'll make it through at the final exams. Especially literature and math D8 doomish subjects >o<. I'm feeling really sorry about slacking it off like this sometimes. But usually I dont care at all XDD and guess what!? I am not failing any subject so far (I hope xDD)

Music I listen to last weeks/months is.. weird. No particular genre/artist/whatever just random shits I find nice/cute, random songs from AMV's and all kinds of slashes I saw xDD Oh yeah Of course I love songs from SP xDDD haha silly me i almost forgot (dreidle song and Lonely Jew on Xmas are the BESTEST)

Dude I dunno what else to put here..
oh yeah

XMAS IS COMING! and it's pretty possible i won't write another journal till then (and maybe not even long after that) so merry (fucking) xmas and happy new year and all you wish for, be healthy, be wealthy, be whatever you want xD

I love yaaa~~~

It's a storm outside. Again. I love it, I love the fresh air *inhale* .
It's a nice evening today >o<
Lucky is sitting on my table, she was a bit afraid of the storm so i took her out and gave her a few granules . She's looking on my fingers on the keyboard right now, lol it's fun to watch her watching me, she 's like.. her head is hopping from side to side so she can see the movements LOL... I dont have to be afraid that she coul fall down, cuz she's clever enough not to jump from such a hight ^^ My little clever turtle <33
Also I'm reading Soul Eater a bit now . Yes I know I'm late, that every cool kid already read it and whatsoever you want 8D But  I like it. the style, the story, the charas!! >o<
YAY and also this day was awesome!! I spent it whole with Shel <33 just gotta add that this day had EVERYTHING that our relationship has =^_^= *won' say moar * ;P
I dunno why but i really felt like updating this journal, i haven't posted anything in .several weeks so i thought it would be nice to write soemthing new, And now i'm feeling so good it's unbelievable, so i thought i'd share

THAT'S ALL I HOPE YOU'VE HAVE SUCH AWESOME DAY, TOO >o<

LOVE YA ALL <33

Oh yeah it is and i'm typing this journal instead of drawing my present for hebi, which i totally screwed up already XD I cant draw people anymoar.. it's even worse than it used to be WTF! ? D:

You may know i'm into drawing dogs much more these weeks XDD Now i'm working on some of us, narushos, as fursonas... I have done me (edd), shel (Shay) and currently working on Asu (Axu).. i hope you wont get mad ppl, xDD and everyone can have a request what you want me to add to the chara of yours :love:

Nah i should write soemthing bout school right? XD soaah.. i have almost everything done... only 4 more test to go for meh XD 3x math and one chemistry  and maybe a literature (omg plz no!) Shel has it worse.. she has also japanese DX.. and i decided i want to help her and i told her so.. so.. now i'm trying to learn hiragana (-______________-) so i can read her the words and she'll write kanjis.. well i think i wont make it, i cant even draw those things.. i mean.. write -.- whatever i'm trying and mah fav one is KA LOLOLOL okay so that would be it XDD

Few days ago i registered to www.nipponmedia.com forum, go and do it as well!!! they have a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOADS of jap music (also new Yui) ^___^
go and check!1

PEACE!

So, after two long months am here again 8D. You happy you have me? hmmm? XDDD
LOL

It's spring out there HURHUR; I was with Lucky in the garden yesterday <3. I wanted to read Saikano, but i couldnt, i just couldnt take off my eyes of Luckie. She looked soo happy. sitting in the grass, with her back to sun, chewing some dandelion leaf. Im sure it felt like home to her C: Today we were out again.(I always think to myself "that's not fair!! shes having a picknick-food for breakfast! DX" But im happy i can give her this 'feeling of freedom' now ^^ ) I thought the sun will shine like mad just like yesterday, but it started raining a bit instead. And Lucky? She started running ike crazy to the nearest hole in the ground. Did she really feel it? Did she know it's about to rain seriously? 6th sense i would say. :D
I LOVE HER.

Yesterday, me and shel were on dogs exhibition in incheba, almost whole day! It was exhausting, but it was worthy!!! I felt... I felt totally happy when we arrived there and i could see all those dog breeds and their happy owners chit-chatting together, or just sitting there with their pet and preparing them for the exhibition. And shel? She looked happy too, she was just running from here to there and taking photos of every ineteresting doggie she saw, and talked with the owners a bit. She told me many many ineteresting things/facts about dogs, so i learned something again. C: Some poeple near us looked very strangely at her when she was saying these 'smart things' they had no idea about xD. We even stayed there to the very end, we saw all finals, i dont remember who won anyways ^^;; I fell even for few breeds.. german mustiff, 'the biggest breed in the world which i cant name n english XD', czechoslovakian wolf-dog (?), and many moar. XD Im glad i spent this day with Shel.
I LOVE HER.

And i had a lil chit-chat with Asu, I am happy and glad you still consider me as one of your closest friends. I dunno why but i had that feeling that i lost this some time ago. I wont write about it here anymoar. but:
I LOVE HER.

oh yeas, as some of you may have noticed i have internet again -WOOT-  so replying, commenting, writing stuff, posting stuff on here or dA is BACK HURDURHUR!!! I have no scanner yet but that will get solved in some time ^^ then new pictures to come (lost).

And now I'll be off or a week again XD Our class (so shel too) is going to have a KOCAP (kurz ochrany cloveka a prirody) [Course of protection of human and nature - no am not sure if its in english.. hell my english worsend so much TAT, since i didnt use it at all in past few weeks... w/E]

I guess it's all i wanted to say XD
PEACE_out.

Yeah, that's right, i've got mononucleosis, That's the reason i'm not at school, meetings, sleepovers. it's pissing me off.
I can't go out, meet up with Shel, with my friends, it's like a jail cell TAT;;; I hate it, i wanna go ouuuuuut TAT

and the worst is that i feel totally fine again, I have no fevers, i can swallow normally, without pain, i eat and sleep normally again. Well okay i dont eat normally cuz of that stupid stupid diet -.- I can't eat chips, crisps,  chocolate, mayo-stuff, fried food, any any fast food, whipped cream, and much moar.
TAT
it's desperate.
I CANT EVEN EAT CHOCOLATE COOKIES D8<

where's the moral in this world? DX
and the next holidays? I will spend them at home. alone. I hope you will enjoy some slpover if there will be some, kids <33
I love you all and  now you have SPECIAL MISSION!!!!!! You must enjoy the life/spring/everything to the fullest! even instead of me!!!!  YOU GOT IT???

I love you;;; take care everyone.
baais <333

So the holidays are here ....

It's my birthday today!
11.02. XD I'm fucking legal from today on! xD w00t! I can buy porn, alcohol, cigarettes! I'm fucking 18!
From now on, I'm an adult! Have some respect, kids 8D!! MWUAHHAHAHA.

jkjk;^^;
I dunno what to do till i'll go to dentist, so i'm writing this boring and TOTALLY useless journal <3

xDD;; Hope you all are having fun, wherever you are~~

...what is it....

I feel like I'm acting the same, just like those days/weeks ago.
But you say I'm not enough...
I don't talk to you enough anymore, I don't hug you enough anymore, I'm not all playful enough anymore. What else?
I'm just not enough. that's all i know, all i hear. Did I really change that much?
I'm not good enough for you. I never was. I never will be.
I can be sorry, but that won't change anything. I want to be better for you. I just don't know how.
I'm just hurting you, disappointing you all along. I don't want to anymore.

Am I still your charm or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer, are we just getting more lost?

_{I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand.}

Sometimes i think, that my whole life is a failure. Not everything in my life, but everything I do.
Like today...
I had to do something, very certain, but i didn't, I failed; i wasn't sure if you want to hear it. I think you don't... and yes, I wanted to tell you. I hope I'll get a chance to talk to you soon, kleines.

I just hope i didn't ruin everything already.

this will be just another boring entry, u dont need to read nor comment. w/e xD;;
it's 1am, and i'm tired like hell. xDD;; I think it's thanks to certain activity /LOL <3/ I feel like this last days ^^

Today was a good day. U can guess why xD LOL so...

what else? oh yeah school shits.. I hope we'll do this fucking term somehow XD it seems to be so.. never-ending and still more and more cruel. U know more stuff to do, to learn, more and more exams.. booyah XD; W/E
WE WILL HOLD ON!

I was at denstist's. and those braces are fucking damn tighter and it feels like.. ah well u dont wanna know XD it's a pain in the... u know where XD

another thing is that i dont get ppl who are able to write normal journals with some point or anything, mines are only random stupid rants XD. W/e sometimes i'm glad they can write them, ... like now.. i can learn something about them xDD woot xD
ah shit i have like no idea what i'm typing. gotta believe it will delete itself on its own LOL or that it won't be that harmful. I love you. xD;; I guess i'm too tired. never mind ^^ I'm going to bed ^^ I came too late on line tonight, anyways. am sorry ;w;.....
brm~